My Day

My Day are Never so silent like this
an Anxious ..
No conscience
very queer

where i'm ?


my change begin ..
When i confirm my Conscience for Leaving and try to go
It's never be Planing of me ..
never in mind

The shadow of them and my ambisious
feeling gone in one Hour discuss
it's Really to be sad ..

Still i'm
try for handle my Tears
don't wanna appear of somebody there
Ply a kidding for liar my sading heart
over Broke  ...
but i wanna make them smile

like a dark in the night
i can't see my sun ..
never be ..
i can't see my star
never be ..

me and my last dream
something that's never can be actualization by me
poor me ...

rain as if begin fall in my heart
very heavy ..
still ... i try to handle,
i don't wanna make them ( my lovely ) be sad

My allah ,
perhaps,if  i run for get my dream last
i never be like this.
my realize .. i over selfish
for thinking its.

now ..
i realize why they're don't wanna me there
they know ... what's the best for me.
mom ... you're my everthing

but now ,, i feel reserved of me.